Thursday, March 29, 2007

I'm back.

Yes, I'm baaa-aaaack!
Haven't been online for the past month due to..well, various problems. But I think I'm dragging myself back to something resembling normality.

I had a moment of truth today. I was ringing up a customer who mentioned casually that she has two herniated discs in her back and one in her neck, and they cause tremors. She then says, 'And my doctor doesn't want me to take Neurontin just yet because it can slow you down mentally.'

Whoa. It dawned on me that if I had indeed slowed down (I take tons of the stuff to stop chronic shaking/tremors caused by who knows what), I could not trust my own mental perceptions to realize this. I asked a couple of people at work, who stated that I had been making more errors recently and that it seemed to have started when I came back from short term disability leave (which was around the time when I started the Neurontin). I asked my husband, too. His response was, 'Haven't you noticed that your daughter finishes sentences for you?' Well, no, I haven't, but if my FOUR YEAR OLD is finishing sentences for me, there is a problem.

This further begs the question: why in HELL hasn't someone mentioned this before? I'm entering into something akin to dementia (I apparently often stop talking mid-sentence and have to be prodded into finishing and sometimes even reminded of what I was talking about.), and no one MENTIONS IT? Jeez.

I talk to the neuro tomorrow (quite conveniently, I already had an appointment scheduled.) If it is indeed the Neurontin, I think I either need to find another mode of treatment or step down at work because I have WAY too much responsibility to become a zombie.